Sunday, August 14, 2005

I'm not Superwoman

I've decided that this (the title of this post) is going to be my "theme" for the upcoming school year. It's appropriate in the sense that I've spent a lot of time lately---as a result of burning out yet again at the end of the last school year---reassessing what style of work works for me, what style doesn't work for me, what's important to me, and what I can let go. I've done a lot of reflection on this stuff this summer (and continue to do so---this is definitely an ongoing process!). I now know that I cannot continue to approach work the way I have the past two years, especially if I want to survive the upcoming year without a breakdown of some sort. But it's hard for me---I'm a very driven person, and there are so many things I *want* to do that focusing my energies on just a few of them is hard for me. So this year will be all about prioritizing, working "smarter" and not "harder", and above all, accepting myself as I am and not as the mega-person I think I should be. I am, after all, not Superwoman, nor will I ever be.

Of course, this statement is really ironic coming from me, considering that this weekend I completely overexerted myself while trying to be Super Athlete! (I am really hoping that these aches and pains go away...particularly the really troubling pain in my kneecap. Ouch.) News flash: It is a bad idea to go for a very long bike ride (over 30 miles), no matter how scenic the ride and no matter how good a shape you think you're in physically, when you have not been on your bike yet this season. Owwwww. And who knew that my bike seat was actually made of rocks? At least, that's what it felt like....particularly around Mile 20.....

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